Isn’t this beautiful? I think it’s where I need to be now.
My enthusiasm for blogging has been declining for about the past year.
I need to relax.
I need to let go.
It’s time to regroup and reform.
I may be back….
I need to just be.
I’ve been blogging since March 07 and it’s been fun but because of recent events in my life I’m feeling a need for change and some serious RnR.
I feel the need to write a final post about Mom. Previous posts about her journey into the depths of Alzheimer’s are here.
She died a long death. It seems she started dying a couple years ago when she no longer recognized anyone she knew. It’s such a horrible thing to watch. I know I’ve said that before, but it is. Witnessing the demise of a loved one, especially when they are physically there but not mentally……your heart breaks over and over again. I’ve often missed chatting with her, taking her to the mall and lunch.
I was holding her hands and resting my head on her chest when she passed.
Honestly, I’m glad she’s released from that tight grip of Alzheimer’s.
Her wish was to be cremated and she wanted no formal service. There was a private viewing for those family members who wished to view her body. She was not in a casket or wearing fancy clothes or makeup, her hair was not done and she wore the clothes she died in and I know that I have never seen her look so beautiful.
People often remarked about how beautiful her skin was and even in death it was so smooth and pretty, I had to feel it’s soft smoothness with my finger tips. She had the most pleasant look on her face…..a slight smile and she looked happy and peaceful.
We almost couldn’t believe she looked like that, it wasn’t what we expected at all. But her facial expression spoke volumes, she was released and happy again at last.
If this made your eyes well up with tears, I’m sorry, but it’s ok…it really is. Embrace life, feel it and love deeply everyday.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. That’s what she taught me.
My sweet Mom has gone to be with our Lord. She passed at 8pm. last eve. Her long journey with Alzheimers is over.
Grief is overwhelming at times and I pray for God’s grace to carry me through.
Getting little glimpses into bloggers lives is one of the perks of blogging. At least I think so…
This is my daughter and husband at the ice castle, Lake Saranac, NY. Every February there’s a winter festival and huge blocks of ice are taken from the lake to build an ice structure. It’s lit up at night so it must be beautiful, but…….all I can say is “brrrrrrrr!” Oh, by the way, this was their honeymoon!
I’d really really really love for you to share a Faces* Family* Friends photo? Share a little peek into your life with a photo of you, your kids, dog or any family member or face…or anything at all really!
Come on and link up, it’ll be fun.